Love is pretty weird when you’re the only one loving someone. I mean, when you told me that you wouldn’t want to break someone’s heart because you don’t want that experience… well.. it’s pretty obvious that you’re very much still in love with her. You know what sucks? When the person you love is loving someone else. That’s what sucks. It definitely hurts to watch someone you love love someone else. If that doesn’t hurt your feelings or damage your ego then I don’t know what else does.
I have to accept the fact that you’re in love with a childhood friend. You’ve been in love with her for so long that I’m nothing compared to her. I’m damaged, broken, and hurt but acceptance is the key.. right?
I’m looking forward to move on life though. It has been too cruel to me and sometimes to the point where I do not wish to live anymore but that’s nonsense. As long as their chances to take.. take them.
You know what? I haven’t tagged Ditto for quite a while now. Well, here you go.
You know what hurts? Suffering from a broken heart. They say the truth will set you free but I feel entirely trapped with my illusions and fantasy I’ve been imagining for almost two years. I can’t wait to start a new life with new people.. if that’s even going to happen but at least I’m away from the painful experience I physically and emotionally felt. Because even if I lie to myself and tell myself that I’m happy - I’m not. I’m utterly depressed. Since I’ve been suppressing my feelings for quite a long time, I want to know if that’s going to help with this heartbreak I’m feeling.
I’d like to take these broken wings and learn to fly. I feel so broken and alone. I know that one day I’ll get over this but right now, I’m just so broken.